Sadness

ive just received news that our 12 year old German shepard just died this morning. I was at the vet with him just yesterday. Apprently the vet couldnt find anything wrong with him. although he had a fever and was breathing heavily. they did a few Xrays but couldnt see anything. so they kept him there overnight on a drip.

I felt really bad when he was fighting with my husky(bobby). i remember not being able to seperate the 2 so i picked up a plastic broom and started whacking him with it to get him 2 stop while someone else pulled him off my husky since he was the bigger dog. i remember shifting most of my attention over to my husky when he arrived.......... sigh....now i feel like shit. i can only bring one dog out a time, sometimes if my dad comes home early he brings Blacky out as well (the German shepard). being the alpha male he would always try to get ahead of bobby. thus resulting in most of the fights bobby & blacky had at home. Rest in peace Blacky. Im really sorry for the way I treated you sometimes. I wished I had pet you more when i had the chance.

now i feeel quite lousy & shitty.